UPDATE: 3rd October 2005
I'm having a difficult time this past few months, where I lost my direction on my purpose and also having a lots of problem to handle.
First of all, I don't know what to do with my carrier, as I'm so lost direction until I don't know what to do. I thought that I'm able to find something to work with in the office, but it turns out to be in the opposite direction.
Secondly, the youth is like a big burden for me, for I have to adjust my lifestyle in order to spend time with them. Plus, I'm not a good leader at all, so I'm trying to be one. As I tried, the more I tried to do it, I'll surely screw things up.
Lastly, I think I started to lost faith in other people... It might be cruel to other people, but that is what in my heart now... People will use their standard and what they see with their own eyes instead of their heart to understand other people and give opinion according to what they see. Well, I can't blame any body, for I have to expect that it is how life is.
Well, continue to walk on, for life is a long long journey before it meets its end when the glory prevailed.
I never really thought that I can be in such a state that I'm desperately need help from the one most high...
Some one might be wondering what is it like to be a Christian, where you can actually stay like a normal people and be normal! Why should you be such a fanatic dude!
Well, if anything can be explained, there's no need to study!
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Man, being alone is tough, but being together is even tougher... No matter whether you are working with people, or you are working with some body else... ha!
After few weeks of pray and fast, something really reviewed. As He has revealed - "Are you ashame of your family?"... Come to think of it, I do, even though it's just a tiny bit...
But why do I few ashame? Because of the thing in the heart that I'm actually a son of the second one?
Anyway, that's not important anymore, for it's written, that everyone comes to this world for a purpose...
Looking forward to that. Till then, 'MAKE UP YOUR MIND AND BE STRONG!!!'
Yicks, even though I'm able wake up early for pass few days, but I'm started to go back to not able to wake up early in the morning again!
I reckon the problem is with playing too much of playstation 2. I've been playing for the whole day continuously without stopping, that's why my health deteriorated...
Should have managed the time properly and not to play too much of game.
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