UPDATE: 3rd October 2005
I'm having a difficult time this past few months, where I lost my direction on my purpose and also having a lots of problem to handle.
First of all, I don't know what to do with my carrier, as I'm so lost direction until I don't know what to do. I thought that I'm able to find something to work with in the office, but it turns out to be in the opposite direction.
Secondly, the youth is like a big burden for me, for I have to adjust my lifestyle in order to spend time with them. Plus, I'm not a good leader at all, so I'm trying to be one. As I tried, the more I tried to do it, I'll surely screw things up.
Lastly, I think I started to lost faith in other people... It might be cruel to other people, but that is what in my heart now... People will use their standard and what they see with their own eyes instead of their heart to understand other people and give opinion according to what they see. Well, I can't blame any body, for I have to expect that it is how life is.
Well, continue to walk on, for life is a long long journey before it meets its end when the glory prevailed.
I never really thought that I can be in such a state that I'm desperately need help from the one most high...
Some one might be wondering what is it like to be a Christian, where you can actually stay like a normal people and be normal! Why should you be such a fanatic dude!
Well, if anything can be explained, there's no need to study!
